Time Will Heal The Pain
Some travel through it peacefully...
Some face it a little too suddenly...
Others endure agonising long hours
Days..
Weeks..
Years....
Before it creeps softly upon them and eases them off their pain.
We cannot control it
Nor can we reschdule it
Some are afraid of it
Others embrace it
Death
Its amazing how this small, short five-letter word can cause us so many emotions all at ones.
Its astonishing how this word rhymes with breath, but ironically robs you of it.
Sometimes the very thought of it makes us shudder and not want to think of it.
Othertimes, curiosity overwhelms us, and we do all within our means to find out more about it.
Once we have experienced death, we leave the world that we cried when we first entered it.
What hurts the most, is that the story does not end here.
No, in fact it marks the begining of a long and tyring journey for the ones we have left behind.
A journey that involves extreme pain, hopelessness, longing, crying, numbness, and lastly the fight to learn acceptance.
Acceptance
Its difficult
Its draining
But its also, the only route towards healing.
Memories...
Its difficult to forget.
But without forgetting it, it makes accepting the lost of a loved one,
more painful and heart wrenching.
But we dont have to forget it.
No, instead we embrace it
And find warmth and consolence within it.
Its hard to look at the cold heart truth that he or she is gone,
But try to understand that,
Where he has gone, is a place that he need not suffer any longer.
The one you love is happy, is at ease...
We do not have to cry over that
Instead, we should be thankful that he is at peace now.
They haven't left you. They never will.
They are within you, and always will be.
Look within yourself and find consolence in the memories you shared with them, especially when your longing for their comforting hand on your shoulder is too much to bear.
This is dedicated to my most cherised of friends, Valerie and Farhanah.
And to My Dearest Mother. I miss grandpa too mum..
We'll pull through together huns
I promise...
Time will heal the pain...
posted @ 8:37 PM
That's just how it is...
Wild Roses...
Roses have always been associated with love
It has never been clear why..
But never questioned either.
Perhaps its because the answer is only too obvious
Its soft tender petals..
Irts rich redness that never fails to remind you of blood..
So why such beauty has thorns that prick you, as you hold it?
But, perhaps, it is this feature of the rose that makes it the most suitable to be associated with love
Love pricks you.
As the seed develops, and stem sprouts out, thorns appear.
They increase in number as the flower grows.
Just like love..
As love blossoms, pain does as well
Confusement, anxiety, paranoia
These are all thorns that prick at your heart
That make you feel pain
During this period, many give up
Arguments,Break-ups, Divorce
But some..
Some hold on
Thight-
Real thight
Then the petals develop,
the bud blossoms
And then one day..
A beauty so remarkable results.
A full-grown rose..
At first sight
its overwhelming beauty stuns you..
Those who hold on to love faithfully
Get rewarded with happiness, stability, loyalty
and most importantly a cocoon of warmth and safety.
No..
I'm not in love
At least not in love with the sort of love that you suspect at the moment
Believe it or not
Love is everywhere
Sometimes it destroys
other times , its that thin silk of thread that protects and prevents a relatioship from breaking.
Look at your parents, look at their faces,
Study their eyes
And ask yourself
Do you see pain?
Do you see hardship?
Imagine that love, warmth and happiness of those eyes when you were born
Imagine their amazement and wonder as they first laid eyes on you
They have done everYthinG
All they can think of you
To make you what you are today.
YeS
Its is because of their pain, their courage and determination
that is the cause of you siting here right now
in a home where you feel safe
And reading this
Next time you want to argue with them about yours rights
Think about this
And ask yourself
Is it Really Worth It?
posted @ 11:20 AM
I feel FREEE
I've totally decided to make the most of this holidays. I cant confidently say that it is extremely well-deserved, but I cant help but allow myself to feel free and simply enjoy the loooong hours of freedom. For now, revision, homework and stress would just have to take a backseat.
This week had been awseome. Surprisingly I found the tutorials quite enjoyable. Please do not mistaken me as a nerd with no life, but without the tension of an upcoming exams(excluding the "o" Levels of course, that fear and tension will always be there) but despite that, the tutorials were quite alright : ))))
But I have to admit I and i'm sure many of my friends are gonna miss Mr Suhaimi. He was a really good teacher and humorous, and for some reason could always bear with my huge problem of being extremely TalKatiVe. Hehess, oh yeah, and my AmaAzing hand Writing.
But whatever it is, I wish him all the best for all his future engagements and may all future handwrittings he may come across in the future be more pleasent than mine. : )
Alright people, talk about ChemIstry OverLoad!! I really like Chemistry but next week is going to be a teeny bit more chemistry than Im used to. But at least we will not be crammed with Chemistry Info whan school re-opens and when we are a bit too close to O levels than I would quite like, so I guess It's better now than later. : )
I'm going to meet Yoges later. My sis, Yoges and I are going to watch this Indian Cultural Show. I guess its gonna be quite fun. Who knows, it might just help me with my TamiL, hehes
Val was totally adorable yesterday, lols, when we were WALKING to Loyang point from school. Lols, she can really be funny when she wishes too. : DDDD
Tomorrow, Yoges, Regina, Val, Sonika, Vadhana and I, anre gonna either watch, POC, Shrek3 or Zodiac. Im totally disappointed with the reviews Ive heard/read so far concerninf POC. Apparently its too boring to imagine. But this is totally expected since they killed of Orlando Bloom. HOW COULD THEY!!!!
Oh well...you know..HOLLYWOOD
posted @ 3:35 PM
***Talk about TiPicAL***
I simply CaNNOt believe it. Someone PINCH me!!
Its OFFICIALLLY the last day of the EXAMSSS
Oh my gosh....
I see light.......
Sniff sniff...( excuse me..just give me a moment to pull myself together)
I'm presently overwhelmed with dramatic emotions.
Clears Throat
Ok all better now.
YaYYYY
I FEEL FREEEEEEEEEEEEE
Every thing seems so Much more brighter
The sky much bluer..( Who am I kidding the weather's horrible. Talk About HOT!)
The bird's voice more sweeter(What am I talking about, all I hear are thos sstupid crows yelling their lungs out as though someone died or something)
T
he grass so much more lustrious and green(No actually Its kinda parched..)
Hmmmm
Ok... This is weird, how come I dont feel as light, freee and HAPPY as i expected to be...
AAARGGHHH
Talk about typIcaL
First I feel guilty for putting off my studies, then I panic as the exams get closer, the I rush like CraZZY to finish my revision, then I recieve a heart attack before every paper, then go through emotional trauma during the paper, feel a teeny bit lighter after the paper, then a sinking feeling at the thought of the next paper, then overwhelming happiness after the entire examinations, then panic attacks before getting the results. Talk about MAJOR emotional Roller coaster ride! Can you BLAME us teengaers for having moodswings?
Oh well..Thats LIFE
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Oh yeah, J.Yoges, my friend from primary school is acting!
She's amazing, I never knew she had it in her.
You ROCK HUN!!
At least we have One whole month before school reopens again.
LOLSSSS
Yeah RIGHT
We still have thouse fun, enlightening tutorials that would destr...I mean make the holidays all the more enjoyable.
Hehess
Actually, Im sort of looking forward to the tutorials. Staying at home will be a major bore, at least I can tease, annoy, and IRRITATE but Fab, amazing, Fantastic friends in schoool!!! Hehehess
Kidding you guys...
NOT!
posted @ 3:54 PM
***im totally tired***
Well, despite the tons of homework and tests, I have still found a reason to keep my spirits up. The BOOK is comimg out!!! I cant WAIT.
Well, Dad, left last Saturday To Dubai. My mother really misses him, and so does my sister. I do too, but I must admit, not as much as my sister. My sister really really misses him. She's online practically half the day chatting with him. My mother is on the phone with him before she goes to work, during lunch break and when she comes home.
Me? I told him to " Take care!!" on the phone three days ago.
Please dont get me wrong. Im not an ungrateful daughter who dislikes my father or anything. But its just that i have always been more closer with mum. Perhaps this separation would make me appreciate my father more and perhaps create a greater bond between us. You know what they say, " Absence makes the heart grow fonder."
Viv came over last night with Aunty Lina(Viv's mum) and both my mum and her spent literally three hours talking about Dad being outstation.
After listhning to mum saying" I really hope he does not catch a cold and eats well" about a thousand times and Aunty Lina saying, " Don't worry Nisha, I'm sure he'll be fine. Just make sure you dont get sick worrying too much." about another thousand times, Viv and I retreated to my room and watched my sister practice her speech.
Then we toasted some peanut butter and strawberry sandwiches and ended up tickling one another. (I almost made Viv choke) Lolssss
Anyway, tomorrow Sonika and I going to Mr. Gabriels restaurant. If val and fen dont turn up, its gonna be kinda embarrassing...oh well
posted @ 5:44 PM
oh oh oh
Oh oh
I have a problem(in singsong voice)
A very V-e-r-Y big problem
What will you do if ou realise your dearest friend is not confiding in you as much as she used to, or seems too caught up with the worries of growing up that she has forgotten to be a child anymore?
What if you're worried about something she just became caught up in, and as much as you know she is strong enought and intelligent enough not to fall into unknown, ure worried she just might?
Or what if you suspect something else is brewing in her life, that she does not realise, but you do?
Well, I for one honestly haven't a clue.
But the last thing I want is to become too dramatic and exaggerate the issue
So what to do?
hmmmmm
Well i'm still thinking, and thinking and thinking...
Not that im any close to finding the perfect solution or anything.
Over reacting and imagining too much will get me into huge trouble(as the begining of this year had shown) Ilma, Sonika and Yoges know very well what I'm talking about.
Lols, honestly I was really really silly then.
So I have to tackle this another way, but exactly what is the way??
Where's Hermoine when you need her???
P.S: Thanks again Sonika for being such an angel and exploring the entire school with me today!LOLS
posted @ 8:20 PM
***already half-way through the hols***
Oh my gosh it is already Wednesday. How did four days of holiday pass so quickly?
I'm not exactly complaing, but I've always been taken aback at how fast time passes.
When we look forward to a certain occasion, we get really excited and cant wait for time to pass. But once that special occasion is over and you get back to normal every-day duties you get shocked at how much time has flown by, and at such an alarming rate as well. Have you ever felt that way?
I have, and quite a number of times as well. What really bothers me is that the rate at which time is passing is increasing. Does this mean the earth is spinning faster? Or is it just because there are increasing number of tasks to be completed each day before the sun sets, as we grow older?
Im presently reading a book called The Sealed Nectar.
Beautiful name isn't it?
Its the complete, or as complete as possible, of the life of Prophet Muhammad(s.a.w).
I've always wanted to read his biography, but I still have not reached that part yet.
The begining of the book is all about the various Arab tribes of the past. How they came about and what were the factors that cause them to cease to exsist.
It was first witten in Urdu, if I'm notmistaken, and then translated into English.
Definitely a very compelling book...
Now what were we talking about before the book came up?
Oh yes..Time.
Don't you think it is a pity that as fast as time passes by, we don't seem to be able finish our work at equal rate?
Speaking of time passing, the Arena was on yesterday. Quite saddening really..
I did not expet it end so soon.
Definitely an exhilarating experience, nothing short of a rollercoaster ride, something I wouldnt trade for the world. :)
Pity it was so short...
Or maybe, time just passed so quickly that it appeard that way..
posted @ 3:42 PM